I know this sounds stupid, so let me try to explain it. I think we can all agree that your favourite books will always carry a strong level of sentimentality and importance. In some cases a book can feel like it's a part of you, so it's intimidating to share it with someone who you aren't certain will appreciate it as much as you do. The sensible and logical fangirl voice in your head will encourage you to spread this love and won't stop until the world values this book as much as you. But then I'll find myself automatically rolling my eyes when a non-reader friend is obsessing over a book I told he/she about weeks ago. I feel an urge to say "I told you so. Are you glad I got you to read it?". Suddenly word spreads and everyone's loving it and all you can do is sit in a ball of frustration.
It's as if I'm sending out two different messages, messages that I don't even understand. "Love it but not as much as me". It's like I need my obsessions to be known and that I loved it first. I don't understand where this illogical and stupid feeling, like I need to mark my territory comes from. I'm not a dog and I am certainly not going to pee in anything other than a toilet.
This doesn't occur all the time and it's not a regular thing. It's a small pet peeve but when this feeling comes, I get really annoyed. It's a different story when I'm discussing or suggesting something to a book blogger or someone I know shares a deep love of books. I know that my books are safe with them whether they like it or not. But it's the non-reader 'I must flaunt about my love and set a trend' type of people that really irk me. When I'm recommending to my friends or non-readers.. this strange dominance comes out. Which leads me to think, is this just selfishness?
When someone asks me why I'm not reading (for example) Divergent, meanwhile everyone else is, I want to scream "Maybe because I already read it. Remember, I'm the one who bugged you to read it ages ago and the reason you are". Or it's especially annoying when you love a book before it gets adapted and then after seeing the movie suddenly everyone wants to read it. You can't help but view them as unworthy, particularly when you were there all along. But it's still silly and stupid to be annoyed over something like this. Because it's these buyers and new fans that make not only the adaption but the book successful. Shouldn't I be happy to see more people loving these books? Shouldn't I be happy knowing that I can now share these things with my friends who took listen of my suggestion?
It's weird, it's crazy and it's strange. But these things peeve me off and that's just for some reason how I feel. I can't really explain it and maybe I am selfish. But is it so bad to be so protective over these books? It's just further proves the power of a great book. Tell me what you think in the comments, whether you agree or disagree. Because I'm totally chewing my nails over here (not really, I have never done that. But let's just say I am mentally). Tell me I'm not crazy or tell me I am. Enlighten me!